Life

is so confusing sometimes. Why must everything, EVERYTHING, be so difficult? But what would life be if it was easy? Sometimes I feel like I just need a break. I stress out over everything way too much. I honestly cant help it. Ive tried so hard to. I dont like being an in between age, teenager and adult, Life is so hard because you dont know if you should still act like a kid or if you should act like an adult. Its exactly like when you are 12 except more grown up. Anyway, who decided that everyone should follow society's decisions? I want to know who said that society is always right? I think its about as theoretical as anything else in this world. I want to be able to do things without someone always telling me that its wrong or weird. It makes me angry and frustrated. Something else, I like to figure out what wrong and right for myself. Dont be like I told you so, just be there for me if I need someone to talk to. This is why Im not like that to other people, or I try not to be because I know how it feels and I know that people dont listen to my advice and I usually dont listen to other people. Well I listen I just dont do anything about it because I just like to find things out myself. Another thing I feel like I suffer from is depression. Not like serious depression but like I dont really enjoy anything anymore. Its like life is wearing out and Im growing bored with it. I feel like I will never progress to become something more than what I am now. I just realized out of all of my friends, Im the least talented. Its like I was born talentless. I was born weird and talentless, not the kind of person people really wanna be around. Im also really boring, unhappy and anxious all the time. I feel like people dont ever wanna be around me and thats why my friends never talk to me. Maybe that is the case or maybe I worry way too much :P I also feel like I am pushing people out of my life because I feel im not worth their time anymore. Oh well, Im going to start working on my independence from now on. Goodnight.