Everytime.

Everytime I see you, it hurts because I know I can't be with you.

I feel a pain deep inside that just cuts deeper.

You may not see it, but I can feel it slowly killing me inside.

Ripping me apart, deeper and deeper.

Slicing through every bone in my body like a sharp cold knife.

I want to tell you how it feels.

I want to let you know.

But the longer I wait the harder it is

and the more you slip away.

I thought what we had was special and that you were being honest.

You make me not know what to believe in anymore.

I cant trust anyone because I trusted you.

Why do I always do this to myself.

Why do I fall into the trap of trusting someone else?

I want to let you know how I feel

so you can share my pain.