Weird.

Its weird how your life can change completely in one night. Its weird to think that someone who has been your really good friend for over a year is now considered more than just a friend. Honestly I never saw that coming even though I've thought about it quite a few times before. Regardless, I never saw it coming...Its a good thing though, its just giving me a whole lot more to think about now...

I guess.

I don't like those days when I feel forgotten or unloved. Or when I feel like I push those I love out of my life. Today is just one of those days where you feel like you are in a black hole and you cant escape. I know that soon, if I feel down, things will begin to turn around sooner or later. They cant stay down all the time. Maybe I really just want to stay home. I guess the longer you are away from it, the more you appreciate it and miss it. I just feel like Im just in an empty void over here are my grandmas. Im hoping they get someone hired soon. Or maybe its the fact that everyone else seems really happy that makes me feel down. I know I shouldnt be. I just want to find that happiness. I guess things change and I have to change with them.

One last new one for the night:)

My life is going pretty good right now. There is nothing I can complain about or anything. Its not terrific but its just there on the calming stage. Im working on building my self confidence. I think if I have a lot more independence and build my self esteem then I can probably get there. I have a great life going for me right now and I need to take it. I need to stop pushing everything out of my life. Once that happens then I can open my eyes up to everything. There are so many opportunities to do things. I want to do them all. I wish to experience what I have yet to experience. I am planning on working hard so I can reach my goals. Im so glad I have this friend there to help me along. Without him, I dont know what I would do! He means the world to me and hes the one person I can turn to when I ever need somebody. :) And of course my family and my cousin is there for me when I need them. I cant forget to leave them out, but as far as friends go, hes pretty much the only one there for me.

I am beginning to love my life :)

The one special person.

There is no one else like you.

Everytime I see you or talk to you, you make me smile.

You make my day worthwhile.

I know that now is not our time together but hopefully soon, it one day will be.

I believe you are the one.

The one that completes me.

The perfect one.

The one I would give my life to.

The one I would do anything for.

Is this true?

Am I in love with you?

Maybe yes.

I have never felt this way toward another person.

Can it be true?

Maybe.

Needs a break.

Over the break, I have decided I am going to cleanse my mind and start over and think everything out very thoroughly. Lately, I have been jumping at every opportunity. I want to clean the skeletons out of my closet and burn them forever. I am going to get my life together and do some serious thinking before I jump at every opportunity and get myself involved in a lot of things I shouldnt really get involved in yet until my life is in order. I had a card reading the other day from one of my friends and my reading mainly talked about something bad that is going to come into my life soon that will effect everything from then on and it will change the way I see everything. Apparently I will thank it later on for what happen. In a way it makes me worry about what is going to happen in the future but then again it makes me keep my eyes open to what is to come.

Once again?

Ever re-like someone you never thought you would relike?? Crazy thing. I realized a few day that there is this guy that I use to like and I realized I like them again. Like a lot. I feel a strange connection in a good way. All the coincidences. Maybe there is a plan to this madness. Well, we will see :) Goodnight world!

Sometimes.

I just get so tired guys. The ones I like never like me back, or at least I dont know if they do, doubt it. Its just I feel like Ive been waiting for a very long time for someone to come into my life, or someone I know and just havent realized yet. I should just let things happen the way they should...its just taking forever...I guess being patient this long will help me in the long run. It might even mean good things will happen. Dunno what yet xD Haha Yeah, my wisdom teeth are hurting! I want them gone!!!